24ish Weeks

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Let’s pretend this is my 24 week picture. I’m actually 24.5 weeks today…and I’m carrying my leech baby, I have no makeup on, and my hair is in a pony tail because leech baby keeps pulling it.
This is what 24 weeks looks like when you have two small children, a sick husband, a sick toddler and it’s the last week of school before Christmas break. #reallife
How far along? 24.5 weeks
How big is Wyatt? He is as big as an eggplant (9in, 1.7lbs)
Health of Wyatt? Doing well! Busy moving and poking me.
Health of Momma? I feel well. No illness (knock on wood). But with everyone else getting sick, I know it’s coming…
Symptoms: congested, tired, and sciatic nerve pain.
Weight gain? I’m embarrassed…a total of 25lbs! I’m gaining like crazy and feeling yucky about it 😦 Despite my best eating efforts.
Maternity clothes update? No new clothes purchased. Lots of leggings and shirts 🙂
Stretch Marks? None, even though I’m huge. I’m using bio-oil and cera ve lotion. We shall see!
Skin? Skin tone is uneven and very sensitive. But looks clear otherwise.
Sleep? Like a rock this week. I’ve been so tired, I just pass out and don’t hear anything. When I wake, I don’t feel well rested. Guess that’s normal at this point.
Best moment this week? Meeting with our doula to come up with a plan. See below.
Labor signs? None
Belly button in or out? Innie!
What I miss? Bending over with ease. Getting harder these days. lol
What I am looking forward to? My meeting with our midwives this week.
Weekly wisdom? Just taking it one day at a time. Enjoying my kiddos and being pregnant.
Milestones? 24 weeks! Officially viable, though we definitely want him to stay in there and bake for much longer.
Fears? Being a mama to 3 under two. Kind of messing with my head, in a good way, but still. lol

Updates: We met with our doula Monday night and we are working on a plan. 🙂 I know my last post about VBAC’s wasn’t super encouraging. I’m still struggling with how I feel about it all, which I think is normal.
When I begin to panic about what could go wrong in a home birth situation, or even a hospital VBAC situation, I have to remind myself that just as many things can go wrong during a repeat c-section. I know many people who would disagree…we put a lot of trust in our surgical option. It’s normal and accepted. And Dr. C is an amazing OB so I know we would be taken care of. But the fact of the matter is, there are still risks. You wouldn’t be signing paperwork that says you won’t sue the hospital, or be restricted on video/who can come into the OR during the surgery if there weren’t risks.

That being said, my OB still insists he will let me VBAC. I am going to meet with midwives this week and then let my doctor know of my intentions. If he won’t agree to an actual VBAC plan, and find an OB to sit with my while I labor, then we will follow through with our home birth option.
Everything looks good for us. I’m a good candidate. Wyatt is head down and I feel good.

So here’s the plan:
-Talk to a midwife and birthing center (found two midwives and one birthing center that would work with me…kind of sad that’s all I found considering we live in Houston…), get their professional opinion on the situation and make a plan.
-Continue to see Dr. C for regular check ups.

We will be doing Rebozo Sifting to relax me, relieve back pain and keep Wyatt happy in his head down position.
We tried it last night for the first time- it was funny and helped a ton!

Bottom line is I’m prepared for both birthing options and I’m ok with them.

So that’s the update! Not a lot has been finalized, but I feel very comfortable moving forward. Best laid plans… 😉
I will update when I know more. 🙂 hope everyone had a good weekend!

VBAC

So I have been working since we became pregnant on finding an OB to support a VBAC. I love love love my OB and his staff- they are family. But he doesn’t feel comfortable with a VBAC. He used to do them but doesn’t anymore. I get it. It’s risky business. But I want the chance to try. When I was in labor with Eli, I had no idea. I felt great and showed up the hospital only because Barry insisted. I was 6-7cm dilated when I arrived. I could have totally had a baby right then.
But I had a c section because Eli was breech and I am ok with that. I know what to expect. It was not terrible for me and I know looking back it wasn’t ideal, but not a huge deal.

My fears at this point would be that each birth is different and who knows how I will feel after my surgery? (With Eli, I was walking around the next day and off all pain meds by day three.) I will have 3 small children to take care of and I can’t afford to be laid up in bed recovering.

I know, I know. A VBAC has risks. I could still be laid up recovering even if I did have a VBAC. Not to mention all the other risks: http://www.childbirthconnection.org/article.asp?ck=10210
http://americanpregnancy.org/labornbirth/vbac.html

I am also concerned about the process. C section limits my time with Wyatt. I would not be able to hold him immediately, breastfeed or anything like that. All things I want- instead of just his head poked over the curtain for a quick look. :/

It’s been hard to find a doctor who would consider working with me. My only true viable options are: 1- to stick with my OB now (who will likely string me along until I am too far along to change doctors, then tell me: my baby is too big, my pelvis is too small, it’s too risky, he won’t stay for my whole labor…the list goes on and it equals no VBAC). 2- Home birth, which scares the poop out of me. If I hadn’t already had a c section, I wouldn’t think twice about it. I would have a home birth. But that’s just not the case and I want to make sure I am as safe as possible when it comes to birth.

But c section is not without risks too- especially repeat c section. http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/c-sections/AN02070
We are so used to surgery that it’s become an every day thing. A c section is seen as no big deal. In my situation, both a c section and VBAC are concerns.

So what to do? I’m working with my doula on a plan we feel comfortable with. We are meeting with a midwife and I am talking with another OB. My doula is helping with more babay spinning techniques and we will just see where it goes.
When I was pregnant with Eli, I was so upset about my birth plan not going the way I wanted. Jealous even of other’s births.
Now, today, what I am worried about is having a healthy baby at the end. Yes I want a VBAC. But I don’t know how hard I am willing to fight for a VBAC.
It feels silly to even say that, but my baby and my health are most important. We will see…who knows? This baby my stay breech and then I won’t have a choice. -_- lol

Milk Allergy? Plus PP Update

20120514-210931.jpgFirst of all I need to preface this entry by saying how much I hating pumping. Like hate. I’m dealing…
I know it’s best for Eli but its getting harder as I go on. Mainly because I’m still so tired and never seem to be able to catch up on my sleep. Duh- I have a newborn. I know. But still!! If he were breast feeding I could feed him and go back to sleep. But I’m pumping so I get up double the amount of times in the middle of the night. Pump, nap, feed, nap, pump…

My sweet husband does his best to help me and he’s amazing. I feel bad because he is working so hard to help and going to work. What will I do without him?! He’s just as tired as I am.

The worst is the night time pumpings. And if Eli has caught up to me it’s difficult too- he wakes up at the same time I need to pump. I can’t feed him and pump at the same time (one day this week I had him in my arms, my pump going, a bottle in his mouth and my cold lunch in my lap. Lol).

Anyway, all of this is to say I hate it but I can do it so I will continue. Seriously, though, when does it get easier? I make about 5oz less than what he needs everyday. We are close but just not there yet. ~deep breath~

Also, I got to thinking- how does my body know to increase my supply once Eli requires more than what I’m making (still not making quite enough) and the answer was: pump more often! UGH of course it is, why did I think there was some magical other way? My lactation consultant friend said to pump for 10min every hour to increase my supply.
*pout* so now I’m pumping in between my pumpings. Except at night cause that’s just crazy. Lol

/rant

Moving on…he still has a diaper rash. I switched to desitin and we wash his booty and let it air dry. I will see how it looks at the next diaper change.
It worries me because it may point to a milk allergy. Except that milk allergy symptoms are vague.

Here are eight signs, provided by Dr. Moissidis, to help parents of infants identify a potential milk allergy.

1. Diarrhea
Diarrhea is common in babies, but if it is persistent (an average of two to four times a day for more than five to seven days) and/or if there is blood in the stool, it could signal a more serious milk allergy.

2. Vomiting
Babies often spit up bits of food, but vomiting beyond the typical mealtime regurgitation should be examined by a doctor. Reflux symptoms, such as spit-up and difficulty swallowing, can also be milk allergy symptoms.

3. Skin Rash
There are many causes for infant skin rashes like eczema. Milk allergy is one possible cause, especially if the rash occurs along with some of these other symptoms.

4. Extreme Fussiness
Every baby cries, but crying continuously and inconsolably for long periods of time is abnormal. When there is no apparent reason, this is usually called colic. Sometimes this extreme fussiness is actually caused by the gastrointestinal pain resulting from an allergy to the proteins found in milk.

5. Low or No Weight Gain
Most infants double their weight by six months and triple it by 12 months. But when babies are not getting the nutrition they need because of excessive diarrhea and vomiting, they are unable to grow like they should.

6. Gassiness
All babies have gas, but when it occurs along with several of these other symptoms, it can also signal an allergy to milk proteins.

7. Respiratory Problems
Colds are common for infants, but wheezing, struggling to breathe and developing excess mucus in the nose and throat is not. For some kids, these respiratory problems can be the baby’s reaction to the protein found in milk.

8. Failure to Thrive
Babies with milk allergy often suffer from a lack of proper nutrition characterized by dehydration, loss of appetite and lack of energy. This overall failure to thrive is often the result of the effect of the other symptoms effect on the infant’s body.

See what I mean? Eli had a change in his stools, which made me think there was something wrong but apparently that’s normal too. He does get gassy but not all the time. He spits up occasionally but I think that’s more reflux than anything else and it doesn’t happen at every feeding. His nose is sniffy but the humidifier clears it right up. He’s gaining weight. Just has a persistent diaper rash. :/

Could it be the formula? Could it be something I ate? Who knows!? Lol what I do know is there is cheese and milk in everything!!

These are the things I think about at 2am while pumping.
So again, I know it’s what’s best and I am not stopping. But dangit! I’m tired and I don’t want my son’s hiney to hurt anymore.

{I just finished my first in between pumping and made more than I thought! That’s encouraging! I can do this!!! That’s what this summer is all about!} just keep pumping…just keep pumping…

In other news:
I had my pp check up today. I’m now allowed to drive just no heavy lifting or working out until 6-8weeks.
He peeled the dermabond off my incision (not the most pleasant experience) but it looks so good! Very thin and barely there. I’m impressed. 🙂

He also checked my thyroid and recommended continuing all my vitamins. My carpel tunnel should clear up at 6-8 weeks.

Then he brought up my placenta and uterus. Awesome conversation.
Placenta came back normal. Uterus had a lot of endometriosis. Add that to the list…
I had to google it to find out what the heck it is!
He thinks it played a part in our fertility issues. It was missed because HSG doesn’t pick it up (just shows the clear pathway through the lady parts), and my surgery to remove polyps back in June 2011 was not evasive enough to discover the endometriosis because it only looked on the inside.

All that to say, we have one more obstacle to overcome the next time we want to consider another baby. Dr. C felt it important to let me know that these next few months are the most critical if we would like to consider getting pregnant on our own.
What!? I know…
Basically since he cleaned everything out, my chances are higher that we will be successful on our own. Never thought I would hear those words. If we decide to wait, I will likely require laparoscopic surgery to remove the endo before trying again.

Huge. Like huge huge. So Barry and I have a lot to consider right now.
In the meantime, I have driving freedom between 1-2 hour pumping windows. Lol

We are crazy, right?

Anyway, I guess the c-section was good on multiple levels- got to experience some labor, kept Eli from getting tangled on the cord more, discovered endometriosis. Fun stuff.

So that’s my long update. I’m still hermitting for obvious reasons- need sleep, need to pump. But I’m feeling more confident, I’m still pumping and I’m loving my time with my sweet son. We took a walk yesterday, yay sunlight! He is precious and absolutely a blast!