So I have been working since we became pregnant on finding an OB to support a VBAC. I love love love my OB and his staff- they are family. But he doesn’t feel comfortable with a VBAC. He used to do them but doesn’t anymore. I get it. It’s risky business. But I want the chance to try. When I was in labor with Eli, I had no idea. I felt great and showed up the hospital only because Barry insisted. I was 6-7cm dilated when I arrived. I could have totally had a baby right then.
But I had a c section because Eli was breech and I am ok with that. I know what to expect. It was not terrible for me and I know looking back it wasn’t ideal, but not a huge deal.

My fears at this point would be that each birth is different and who knows how I will feel after my surgery? (With Eli, I was walking around the next day and off all pain meds by day three.) I will have 3 small children to take care of and I can’t afford to be laid up in bed recovering.

I know, I know. A VBAC has risks. I could still be laid up recovering even if I did have a VBAC. Not to mention all the other risks: http://www.childbirthconnection.org/article.asp?ck=10210

I am also concerned about the process. C section limits my time with Wyatt. I would not be able to hold him immediately, breastfeed or anything like that. All things I want- instead of just his head poked over the curtain for a quick look. :/

It’s been hard to find a doctor who would consider working with me. My only true viable options are: 1- to stick with my OB now (who will likely string me along until I am too far along to change doctors, then tell me: my baby is too big, my pelvis is too small, it’s too risky, he won’t stay for my whole labor…the list goes on and it equals no VBAC). 2- Home birth, which scares the poop out of me. If I hadn’t already had a c section, I wouldn’t think twice about it. I would have a home birth. But that’s just not the case and I want to make sure I am as safe as possible when it comes to birth.

But c section is not without risks too- especially repeat c section. http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/c-sections/AN02070
We are so used to surgery that it’s become an every day thing. A c section is seen as no big deal. In my situation, both a c section and VBAC are concerns.

So what to do? I’m working with my doula on a plan we feel comfortable with. We are meeting with a midwife and I am talking with another OB. My doula is helping with more babay spinning techniques and we will just see where it goes.
When I was pregnant with Eli, I was so upset about my birth plan not going the way I wanted. Jealous even of other’s births.
Now, today, what I am worried about is having a healthy baby at the end. Yes I want a VBAC. But I don’t know how hard I am willing to fight for a VBAC.
It feels silly to even say that, but my baby and my health are most important. We will see…who knows? This baby my stay breech and then I won’t have a choice. -_- lol


9 Replies to “VBAC”

  1. I would fight for a vbac 100% of course, however if cesarean is the route you go either by choice or medical necessity, then I would insist on a gentle c-section. You would get skin to skin immediately and could establish breast feeding sooner. 🙂

    1. Agreed. I’m just feeling so beat down, you know?
      I keep bringing it up every time I see the doctor, so we will see. Now I’m working with my doula to position Wyatt where he should be, because if he stays breech I won’t have a choice in the matter.

  2. I’m not sure if you’ve read any of my back story, but my first delivery was a c-section and I have since had 2 VBACs. From my experience, the most important thing is a supportive doctor! I switched docs during my 2nd pregnancy (out of necessity because we moved) and it was definitely the best thing. I give my doctor SO much credit for my being successful.

    1. I have!!! I’m so jealous 😉 lol but seriously, I agree and I hope my doctor will be as open as he tells me he is. I haven’t been able to find another doctor who will take me and a home birth option scares me a bit.

  3. Found your website through the April WTE board. I’m seeing the group of midwives at Women’s Specialists of Houston which deliver at Texas Childrens. I’ve heard some of the Obgyn’s in the practice do VBacs so you might want to check them out if you haven’t already.

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