A week ago today my little nugget decided he was ready to come! I can hardly believe it!
I miss those little feet kicking inside my tummy, but it’s hard to miss them too much when I look down at my son.
Tomorrow we have his newborn pictures taken- I simply can’t wait! :3I’m officially off my Vicodin and feeling pretty good about that. I was worried it would dry up my milkies, but it doesn’t seem to be a factor. The good thing, I’m not in any real pain so that’s awesome (just sore but not enough to take anything). I really think I have super uterus, and while I know that labor and nether-region pain varies for everyone, my experiences lead me to believe I have a higher tolerance for pain than I thought.
Anyway, back to pumping. I smell like maple syrup because of the fenugreek. But it’s a good thing. 🙂
I’ve noticed that my worst pumping is at dinner time, seems that I make the least milk then. So weird.
But I’m super proud that I have been able to go this long! I’m still not making enough to satisfy him- I drink water like crazy, snack at every pumping, use a heating pad, self express, let Eli nuzzle/suckle/and have skin-to-skin, take fenugreek, and pump every 3 hours. But I’m sticking with it.
I asked for some advice on FB and the response was crazy- in a good way! Breastfeeding is like taking a political stance…lol But everyone was super helpful.
And while I know that it’s only been a week, I am fearful that I will continue not to be able to keep up with him. I have no need to leave my home right now, but with Eli not actually taking the breast and me being a slave to my Medela, I don’t feel like I will ever get to leave the house any time soon! Breastfeeding is hard!! I know it gets better, but I just want to be able to make what he needs. I consistently make about 30-35ml from both breasts each pumping (except dinner…) and yet he is still hungry. It’s frustrating because I’m not able to satisfy him. Some times he will need an additional 35ml! Which I know is totally normal at this stage, but still. *pout*
That being said, all the stuff I am doing really helps, so when it’s your turn look at that list! I didn’t know any of that stuff until I had to do it myself- even with my breastfeeding books!
Today went really well, we have settled into a schedule and can easily work around guests. It’s nice. 🙂 Today I napped more (that’s a difficult thing for me- I have stuff to do! lol or at least I think I do…). And I got some good skin-to-skin and Moby wrap time! I looove my Moby wrap- best invention ever. My only concern at this stage is the later positions. Some require his hips to be spread, which could potentially be an issue. I have my first ECI meeting next week, so I will ask about that then. At this stage, he is in the kangaroo hold so he is my little rolly polly and his legs stay together.
Speaking of ECI- anyone got suggestions on things to look for or ask about?
I spent some time on FB today looking through all my friends. Suddenly I feel very protective of my pictures of Eli and who may or may not be able to see those personal images. Could the wrong person stumble across them, or my blog and use them to make fun? To be nasty or hurtful? That thought scares me. I want to protect him yet share our journey with others at the same time.
I dunno…it’s a fine line to walk and I’m letting my feelings on it sink in.
Well…it’s about that time: pumping time! Then a nap! 😉
Send positive milkie vibes my way- hoping I’m not Medela’s slave forever!